Thursday, April 9, 2009

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

I've never been very good at making decisions. So I surprise myself as I write this: I quit my job. I put in my two weeks and my last day is April 24th. So SO so many things have transpired to cause me to have made this decision. I've thought of all of the reasons why I should NOT quit, but the reasons why I should quit outweigh them. What will I do? Well most of the people who've heard have already tried solving this problem. However it's not a problem. I'm going to take some time off. I have been ordered to take at least 1 month entirely off before beginning any form of work.
I will probably get a part-time job at some point. But I don't want a job where I feel so tied down. I've been so over stressed and if I would have stayed where I'm at, it would have only gotten worse. My physical health has declined so much in the last 3 years that I've worked for this company, along with my mental health. This had to change. I need to be physical, creative, challenged, encouraged, devoted in my job. I'm going to take this time off and really reflect on life, past, present, & future. I'm going to pray that God will guide me even further into what He has for me.
I don't need to go into all the details, because I'm sure I'll remember them when I look back and read this someday. I was in a very dark place though. I had lost all hope. I had lost sight of why I was created and for who I was created. My precious husband kept praying for me though. He calmed me on the nights that I cried and cried and didn't think I could take it anymore.
Phillip, you are a true God-send. I love you more than I ever thought I could love someone. You are my Cuddle Bear, my best friend, and you're just so darn awesome! I'm blessed to be your wife.
So I won't lie, the idea of being able to sleep in is SO tempting. But I'm determined to use this time wisely and not just sleep it away. I can't help but think of how different life will be. I mean, I haven't had a break since the summer before my Sr. year of high school! I've lived the 8 - 5 life for a while. I plan on working on some sewing projects, crochet projects that I started but never finished, painting, etc... I might just open an Etsy shop! I've already started a list of all the things I need to do, but I won't rush it.
Anyway, if anyone reads this, I hope you don't mind that I ask for your prayers! I want to make sure that I really follow God and pursue a life centered around Him. Seeking out what He wants for me, not what I want. As cliche' as this may seem, I will leave you with the scripture I'm trying to remember:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
Jeremiah 29:11

3 comments:

Kim said...

Wow! This is huge news.

It sounds like you did what we best for you! Congratulations! I hope you have wonderful time off.

Taryn said...

Wow- good for you! I am impressed. You are very brace. I will pray for you. Best of luck to you in your new adventures!

Ruth Amada said...

I just came accross your blog & wanted to let you know that with God on your side all things are possible - it is wonderfull to be able to hear God's voice & have a supportive spouse that will encourage us to move on what God wants for us. I am sooo looking forward to reading the good thing that are coming your way! Sending many of God's blessing your way....