I will probably get a part-time job at some point. But I don't want a job where I feel so tied down. I've been so over stressed and if I would have stayed where I'm at, it would have only gotten worse. My physical health has declined so much in the last 3 years that I've worked for this company, along with my mental health. This had to change. I need to be physical, creative, challenged, encouraged, devoted in my job. I'm going to take this time off and really reflect on life, past, present, & future. I'm going to pray that God will guide me even further into what He has for me.
I don't need to go into all the details, because I'm sure I'll remember them when I look back and read this someday. I was in a very dark place though. I had lost all hope. I had lost sight of why I was created and for who I was created. My precious husband kept praying for me though. He calmed me on the nights that I cried and cried and didn't think I could take it anymore.
Phillip, you are a true God-send. I love you more than I ever thought I could love someone. You are my Cuddle Bear, my best friend, and you're just so darn awesome! I'm blessed to be your wife.
So I won't lie, the idea of being able to sleep in is SO tempting. But I'm determined to use this time wisely and not just sleep it away. I can't help but think of how different life will be. I mean, I haven't had a break since the summer before my Sr. year of high school! I've lived the 8 - 5 life for a while. I plan on working on some sewing projects, crochet projects that I started but never finished, painting, etc... I might just open an Etsy shop! I've already started a list of all the things I need to do, but I won't rush it.
Anyway, if anyone reads this, I hope you don't mind that I ask for your prayers! I want to make sure that I really follow God and pursue a life centered around Him. Seeking out what He wants for me, not what I want. As cliche' as this may seem, I will leave you with the scripture I'm trying to remember:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."