It's Here!

My last day is here! And technically gone since it's 6pm. This week went by so fast and I was completely expecting it to go by slowly. I think it helped that we had something almost every night. Sunday we finally moved out the big couch and the huge entertainment center. We couldn't sell it, so we're storing it with the couch in the basement. As long as we put it up on pallets, they should be okay. We did some switching around in the living room. I'm really loving it. It feels much more open and I have a few ideas of what I would like to do to make it more "us." I will have to post some before & in progress pics. Cause let's be honest, I don't think a room can really ever be completely done. Monday night we had prayer at church, Tuesday night I had a lot of chores, Wednesday night was church, Thursday night we went to Town Hall for Hope-Dave Ramsey, and tonight we're doing our grocery shopping.
So today was really awkward. Well, Dwight-the woman I worked with that makes me think of Dwight from the office was so closed off. She's usually friendly at the least, but she just didn't talk or laugh and waited to eat the catered meal we had today in honor of Administrative Assistants Day by herself. It just makes me sad the last few days we had together weren't the best. Really all week, she's been making comments that made me feel bad for quitting. Now I know, I shouldn't let her comments get to me like that, but I am somewhat a people-pleaser and I just can't help but care. Anyway, so many other conversations took place that just really bothered me today and I think it's only because people don't understand the full situation. Which really isn't their place to know! I just feel like my reason for quitting isn't enough for these people and it's just silly I feel that way. I know why I've made this decision and it's not like I'm quitting to live on welfare! My husband has a job and we are financially able to take this step right now. Can't people take the fact that I've only ever been super responsible into consideration when they respond to this? Arg... so there's my vent. I've decided to just not care what they think. That's how I got where I'm at in the first place! Caring about what other people need, think, want, etc... had me forgetting about myself. I've got to take care of myself, Dang it! So I am.
Anyway, tomorrow is my future sister's-in-law wedding shower and I'm giving Claire a hair cut. Woo hoo. Today's weather has been so beautiful and I think I'm going to go out and enjoy it. ;o)

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions...

I've never been very good at making decisions. So I surprise myself as I write this: I quit my job. I put in my two weeks and my last day is April 24th. So SO so many things have transpired to cause me to have made this decision. I've thought of all of the reasons why I should NOT quit, but the reasons why I should quit outweigh them. What will I do? Well most of the people who've heard have already tried solving this problem. However it's not a problem. I'm going to take some time off. I have been ordered to take at least 1 month entirely off before beginning any form of work.
I will probably get a part-time job at some point. But I don't want a job where I feel so tied down. I've been so over stressed and if I would have stayed where I'm at, it would have only gotten worse. My physical health has declined so much in the last 3 years that I've worked for this company, along with my mental health. This had to change. I need to be physical, creative, challenged, encouraged, devoted in my job. I'm going to take this time off and really reflect on life, past, present, & future. I'm going to pray that God will guide me even further into what He has for me.
I don't need to go into all the details, because I'm sure I'll remember them when I look back and read this someday. I was in a very dark place though. I had lost all hope. I had lost sight of why I was created and for who I was created. My precious husband kept praying for me though. He calmed me on the nights that I cried and cried and didn't think I could take it anymore.
Phillip, you are a true God-send. I love you more than I ever thought I could love someone. You are my Cuddle Bear, my best friend, and you're just so darn awesome! I'm blessed to be your wife.
So I won't lie, the idea of being able to sleep in is SO tempting. But I'm determined to use this time wisely and not just sleep it away. I can't help but think of how different life will be. I mean, I haven't had a break since the summer before my Sr. year of high school! I've lived the 8 - 5 life for a while. I plan on working on some sewing projects, crochet projects that I started but never finished, painting, etc... I might just open an Etsy shop! I've already started a list of all the things I need to do, but I won't rush it.

Anyway, if anyone reads this, I hope you don't mind that I ask for your prayers! I want to make sure that I really follow God and pursue a life centered around Him. Seeking out what He wants for me, not what I want. As cliche' as this may seem, I will leave you with the scripture I'm trying to remember:

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

Jeremiah 29:11